2016 Resolutions!

I really can’t believe I’m writing my 2016 resolutions, it feels like this year just went by way too fast. But here are the things I hope to achieve next year:

1.       Forget the pain. Being honest, 2015 was a year I did feel a lot of pain and it was hard to get up when I fell. So next year I hope to forget all the pain I felt in 2015 and start fresh.

2.       Live to the fullest/ go on adventures. I feel like I always say I need to go on more adventures but never actually do it or be more spontaneous, next year I hope to finally do it. I want to live life the fullest, not only do random things but do things I haven’t before. Also, I want to go on more adventures even it if the smallest thing like explore a new part in town, I want to do it.

3.       Good grades. Every single students has this goal every year, but unlike this year, I promise myself I will actually work harder to get better grades and do better at school. It is going to be a hard one but I really hope to achieve it.

4.       Stay healthy. I wasn’t the healthiest person this year. I work out less and did not eat healthy, but I made a promise this year I will get back on track and even better. I promise myself I will work out more, and even promise to get back into swimming which is something I know I need to do.

5.       Drive. I said this, this year, but I did get better at driving and I promise to myself I will finally get out there next year. It kind of hard since I’m really scare of it but I want to finally achieve it.

6.       Stop overthinking. I got told this a lot this year, that I was overthinking. So next year I hope I can stop this horrible habit. Not only in the sense of “this is eating me alive” but in the sense of just do it, not over think things through and dare myself to do more.

7.       Ignore what others think/say. And this one goes hand in hand with my blog. I need to stop thinking what others might say, continue posting and doing what makes me happy. But also, in the little habits in life, like what I wear or what I do, I just need to do what makes me happy

8.       Write. I did write more this year, but I want to continue, to get better at it and to achieve more with it. I didn’t write a lot of poetry this year, so next year I hope to do that more. Also, I want to write more for the blog.

9.       Less social media, more contact with people. I really want to use less social media next year. I try this, this year but fail. If we are being honest, I used less Twitter and Facebook this year, which I’m glad. I want to be less dependent on social media and more contact with people. I want to have face to face conversation and less WhatsApp chats.

10.   Save money. I might even start working this year to get money, a small job, but I want to win some money of my own. I promise that next year I will go on vacation with my friends and for that I need more money, so I hope to work to get money.

11.   Just be happy. Like I said before 2015 was not the best year and I was not the happiest if we are being honest. So after doing all the things I’ve mention above, I really hope to be happy next year.

What are your New Year resolutions?

Love

Pili

10 things that made me happy in 2015

2015 was a strange year. I would defiantly call it a roller coaster kind of year. A lot of things change, I did mostly. Even though the last two months were the hardest, the rest of the year was really something and to look on the bright side here are 10 things that made me happy this year.

1.       Moving back to Buenos Aires. It was defiantly scary step in my life, and I’m still pretty shake by this big step. It was really something I needed to do and I’m glad I did.

2.       Starting university. Another scary step that happened this year. It was hard to be honest, a lot of time studying and I did fall a lot, but I was able to get up and move forward.

3.       New friends. I met so many people this year and everyone was so amazing. I’m so happy I met all the people I did this year. All of them have teach me something and some have become a big part in my life.

4.       Punta Del Este. I travel to Punta Del Este last September and I fell in love with that place. Since I love traveling to new places, I had a great time. I really can’t wait to go back.

5.       We color. Last month, my friends and I went to the We Color, which in case you don’t know what it is, it is a festival where people throw color dusts at each other and the music was also pretty amazing. My friends and I spent the whole day running, and dancing around cover in colorful dust.

6.       Tattoo. This year I finally got my first tattoo. It was something I’ve been wanting since I was probably thirteen and I finally did it. Not only was a great experience but it is something meaningful to me that I will carry around forever.

7.       Going out. I started going out this year to parties, clubs, and bars with my friends. I used to hate to go out but now I can honestly say I love it. I love meeting new people and having crazy adventures with my friends. (Picture was taken at 6 am in Buenos Aires while we were walking back to a van to take us home, I was with a friend and someone I had no idea who he was).

8.       Ed Sheeran concert. Ever since I found his music I was dying to go to one of his concert and earlier this year I did. It was really one of the best concert I’ve ever been, he is someone who puts so much passion to his music and his talent is extraordinary.

9.       Hair. This year I cut my hair really short, shorter than ever. I’ve been wanting to do this for so long and never had the guts to do it, and I finally did this year and I loved it so much. I’m glad I finally to the chance.

10.   Elections. I’ve mention this before, but nothing makes me happier than knowing my country is finally going through a big change.

What made you happy this year?

Love

Pili

Heartbreak...

I’m terrified to post this because the person who this is About might read, so if you are, uhm, hi. Sorry if this bother you but you once told me to forget what people thiNk, to just write and not be ashameD of my blog.

This pAst week I felt heartbreak. At least that whAt it felt like. You know, crying every now and then, burning in your heart, Taylor Swift album on repeat and remembering the small things. Heart break is what you Feel when you find his pIctures on your phone, when his name is on your Snapchat story is that feeLing on your chest when there are chances you could run into hiM on Saturday night at the club. Heart break is me writing this.

I’m a cold person, so to wArm up to someone it was one of the haRdest and strangest feelings I experienced. I swore to myself at the beginning I will not allowed myself to feel this. And another part of me was like “Nah, let yourself go.” You might think, “Well you Probably hate yourself right now, but I dOn’t. It is not only part of life but the writeR in me tells me to experience life aNd all its feelings, right Now it is time to feel my heart breaking. Maybe in a few months I will feel real love (not that I never love you, it was nOt love love, at least it didn’t get there. I hope you understand what I felt because maybe, you did too).

I will not regret this feeling or whatever we had because after all I did learn somethings. I learn to let myself go, and have fun. I learn to ignore what others say and just do what makes me happy. I learn to see life different because of this person. Isn’t strange what a person can teach us in a few months? I also learn heart break, and how to deal with it, (Taylor Swift, a party, and junk food are the key). But its part of life and life is not all sunshine and unicorns.

To all of you experiencing this feeling I’m sorry to tell you that you will feel it in the small things: you’ll haTe waking up and not finding his texts, you’ll miss his videos and every time you eat donUts it will remind you of him. On the other hand, I know that one day you will smile when you go back to the bar because of the memories and not because it will remind you of this feeling. I know what when you see him at the club or at a party you will smile at him and ask how many Videos is he filming this week, insteAd of having your smile vanish the moment you see him. I know that you won’t Curse him when you talk to his friends, instead you’ll ask them how he is doing and if he is happy. I just know heArt break is temporarily and one day it will be fine.

If you are reading this (which a side of me doesn’t want you to, but another wants you to know all of this), I hope you know how much I care for you, more than I ever did for anyone-And I’m the type who cares about everyone- how I got worry every night you went out and couldn’t sleep properly until I got the “I’m home” text. How I always made sure you were breathing properly when you fell asleep. And how I ran to help you that night they told me you were not doing good. Maybe he’ll hate you for posting this, but like I said before: he told you not to be ashamed and work on your blog. And here you are building the courage to write and share your heart break story with the world, and with him.

Love

Pili

Ps: I wrote this not for him but for myself and all my readers who understand this feeling

Ps 2: thank you to Coni from Pilana & Co for the help here

Blair & Chuck & Serena & Dan

Shirt-Sofia de Grecia

Boyfriend Jeans- Forever 21

Jacket-Forever 21//Similar here

Shoes-Yo Amo los Zapatos

Hello! Here is a happier post for this Christmas Eve. I know it is not a Christmas related one but with finals, parents moving, etc. I had little time to remember it was Christmas this month. This past month life has been a roller coaster of ups and downs. So after finishing my last final on Tuesday I finally had the time to relax and concentrate on what I love.

Anyways, I really like this look. I’ve been wearing a lot and for different outings. Since my uni has a strict dress code, it is hard to find a good outfit for the summer. The loose and ripped jeans are great to keep it cool. I used the military jacket to hide the tank top since we are not allowed to wear thin straps. I also wear it to lunch with friends, since it is such a casual look, in the spring and maybe I’ll wear it during autumn, and add a scarf to it. Hope you enjoy this, let me know in the comments what you think.

Love

Pili

To my biggest fan....

I think in a way you would have love this, to have your own post here. I wish it didn’t have to be under this conditions. You out of all the people in my life, you were my biggest fan, not just here but in everything I did. I never said it but I loved your comments and I’ll miss them. Every day as I move forward in my career I think about your comments and all your support.

There were three aspects of you I’ll hold close forever and I can only hope to be the person you were. The first one is your adventures. I remember spending hours with you, listening to your stories, everywhere you went. I still remember thinking how I wanted that life, to go on the same adventures you went to. I want to go to all the places you went and see all the things you saw. I want to tell my grandchildren everything you told us. But the fact that I won’t hear all the stories again or the fact that there are so many stories you forgot to tell us, breaks me every day. Every day I think, what story would he have told me today? I would always remember you on my kitchen table talking about all this with a smile and asking me the same question: “and your boyfriend?” (Grandpa he is not around and I doubt we’ll see him anytime soon).

I would always admire your strength. You were the strongest person I knew, the toughest soldier. When we were saying goodbye everyone would tell us how strong you were, how you never complain, not once. Even when it hurt, when you felt like you couldn’t you manage to get up, you manage to make me smile or to crack a smile even yourself, just like last time I saw you. My strength to write all this is inspire by yours, all the times you got up, even when you couldn’t. I’m writing this thinking about your strength because although it breaks my heart to write this sort of goodbye letter, I know you would like it, I know it is what I have to do. So thank you, thank you for inspiring me to write this and giving me the strength to write.

Maybe this is my favorite trait and one that I would never forget: your love, for us, and by us I mean everyone, your sons and daughters, your wife and all your grandchildren. I remember how all of us laid on your lap, you weren’t officially a grandchildren until you were on your lap. Every day, maybe it was a struggle for you but you never stop loving us. Going back to what I said before, I still remember all the effort you made to some and see us that last time. Looking back I know it hurt, but that never stop you from coming home and spending time with us, it never stop the 40km drive, you just loved us that much. My last memory with you, maybe it isn’t in the prettiest place but I’ll always remember your smile when you saw me, how happy you looked just like every time you saw us. So, me this cold heart girl, who does not understand the meaning of love, I hope one day to love people the way you did.

I recently made a promise to myself, and maybe to you too. I promise to never stop writing. I stopped this last few months because I couldn’t find myself but now, I promise to never stop. I promise to you to never stop. I’ll write at least one each week, even if it sucks even if I can’t remember the last time I ate because it is finals season, I’ll write. I don’t know if where you are you can see this, I really hope you do. I hope that where ever you are you are happy, you are spending time outside and you are near the sea, I hope you are sitting outside and you see all the green and hear the birds. But mainly I hope you are seeing us play, I hope you can read this because this is how I’m saying goodbye to you, because I’ll always remember your comments here. I love you forever and I’ll miss you every day.

Love

Pili